Monday, October 19, 2015

So sleep? What is that?

So its not like a every night thing its more like an every other night thing where Malaki will decide he is going to stay up for several hours and scream nonstop. Then the next day he fights naps and then crashes hard the next night. But mom does not get to sleep enough for monmy to keep going. I am dead on my feet, and its usually right after i take my iron supplements at night that he decides to stay up screaming so i end up with a sour stumache the rest of the night and a headache from all the screaming and not to mention being near tears of frustration from just listening to him scream for hours on end. I dont know whats up with him , i give him tyolon to see if its some type of pain, teething or such, he takes a melatonin before bed because he will go til he crashes if not. He seems to want me to hold him then wants down after 10 min to run and thats not going to happen. No way... but i am so warn out i would do almost anything to get this baby to sleep. Any advice mamas?

Love

I look back on all those times i thought i was in love, all those tines i was crazy for this guy or that, and i realized how childish all those were. I wanted to be in love so bad back then, that i feel i sometimes just made out my feelings of infatuation to be the big L. But thats all great because it prepared me for now. All those times of failed relationships and confused feelings were all a blessing, teachers of how to love and what love is. Love is so much simpler than what i was making in out to be, yet at the same time it is so much more than i was making it out to be as well. Love is the simplest of things and the most complex wrapped into one four letter word. LOVE. Well for one there is different types of love, but we all know what type i am referring to.
Randy E Larson, that is the name of the man who has forever changed the way i will see love. From a man that i almost overlooked came the greatest love i have ever experienced. Words do not come easy to explain this love. Its like the gentle love i feel ad i stand out sidw under the full moon, that gentle warmth of the moons light kissing my face on a chilled night. This love i feel is like the earth feeding the plants, the plants know and truth the earth, it is like the rush of a waterfall inviting me to dance to thr tune of the mountains. This love is not like i had ever expected, and more than i have ever dreamed. I dreamt of a prince riding up on a white steed and setting me free, instead an angel found me and held me silently in my excellence. He loved me in a dark night of my life. And showed me how beautiful i am to anothers eyes. This love is so different than the love i have felt before. This love is so pure and unconditional, we talk openly with each other, we support and uplift each other. He is everything i ever wanted in a man and more, he is romantic always doing cute, sometimes cheesy things for me that i adore, he is caring, always willing to assist and take care of me, he is an amazing father, tho he does not have to be he cares after and supports Malaki so much and not only that there is a bond between the two of them that could never be duplicated. He makes me laugh so much and i adore laughing with him. No its not a thrilling on the edge of your seat love, but it excites me so. It's that type of love that works perfectly.