I dont feel any one reads this blog any more and its probably a good thing. I feel trapped in my life. I love the man i am with but i just dont feel i can be the woman he wants. I am too wild spirit and tho i am doing my best to tame my self it seems all i am doing is making it worse. I feel by containing my self i am more likely to act out. I died my hair bight red. I would post a pic here but for some reason my mobile blog does not post pics at all for me. It was a way for me to let out my soul just abit. I have a hard time being in this human form. I feel like my spirit just wants to spread its wings and fly. I wish to dress to honor my spirit and wish to place sacred symbols on my body to remind myself that I AM THAT I AM. But i feel that this angers the man i love. And i just dont know what to do. I am not obe to ask permission. I am free. So how do i contain this wild soul that i have building up threatening to burst out and distroy yet another relationship. I am too wild. I do my best to be calm and sit in front of this tv and do what i am told or what is expected of me, but i end up snarling like a pinned up animal threatening to bite the hands of those that care for me. Please Father Sky tame me.
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