I got to spend the night with my family last night, there was a family night at the park with cotton candy and a movie and every thing. I did not get to see my husband before leaving on this adventure with my family and figured he would text to see where I was at and what I was up to, I know its my own choice to feel as I do but some times I feel as if I could disappear completely and he would not notice, we do now sleep in different rooms completely and I know that our nights are very different, when I go to my room i spend my last few hours working on some LMT tools and then watching a episode of NCIS to fall asleep to while I am pretty sure he stays up quite later than I playing video games and watching TV. Its like we live two different lives. And no he did not call or text to see if i was coming home or any thing. I wonder how often i do cross his mind.
It hurts sometimes as you long for some one to wish you a goodnight. I may be slightly down tonight as I realize even more that I am not as important to the one I am spose to mean the world to as I felt I was last Sept when I said "I do", but I know that someday I will mean that much to some one and for now I know that I am much more than that to my self and this beautiful bundle of light I carry and call Malaki.
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