Last night I stayed up watching my belly move. I could sit there for hours and watch my little Malaki kick and move about in there. It's such a wonder and is all so new to me and slightly bizarre. I mean in less than 13 weeks I will give birth to this lil angel and I will be a mother. So many questions run through my head as I sit and watch my rounded belly move and jump with life. Will I be a good mother? What will he be like? Can I handle such a job? If I leave my husband will I be able to work and take car of my son properly? Will my son look up to me? Am I ready for all this? There is so much to worry about now that my life has been changed so much, from that morning I had a pregnancy test say it was so at 3 A.M. every thing changed for me, it is like I grew up and realized that there is much more to my life than just me. No I was not happy with my marriage before I found out I was pregnant but I told my self I could not leave him then because of the Baby, now I realize that for my child to have a happy life he gets to have a happy mommy as well.
As I watched Malaki move about, tho the fears of my head raced, my heart was at peace, this little bundle of love and light is my little blessing in this world, some one for me to love no matter what, and he will love me for I will be Mom. And with all my power I hold I will be the best mom that I can be.
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