Not according to the plans

There was no yelling, no crying and no anger just a " we are done", a long chit chat on feelings and discussion on what was going to happen. Yes later I cried... not really sure why, I knew this was coming and it went alot better than I could play out in my head, maybe stress? or relief? or even the fact that this is the last thing you expect when you are getting married? There was forever spoken of not 10 months later. I know every thing happens for a reason and I was blessed by this relationship in the greatest way. I just never planned on all this, never planned on being a single mom, never planned on leaving a husband in fact alot of my life lately has not been up to plan. when I was 19/ 20 I had a plan, a mission for the LDS church, infact I had planned on serving more than one, sister missionaries are allowed to serve a few missions as long as they take a sum of months off in between. I planned on maybe getting married when I was like 26 or 28 years old, then being a stay at home mom and having 2 or 3 kids. Really marriage was the last thing I had on my mind. Then I was told no about a mission because of small town drama leading a stake Pres to choose that path for me. Not knowing what to do after plan A and my only plan had been placed aside I went searching for plan B. Some how a place called Impact found me and POW! life change! Planning out of the question! Life went from my planned out days to every moment a new twist and turn. Alot of them amazing and fun some more like the one now. So now here I am looking at my life and saying " wow! This was not according to the plans, Whats next for me?"