Crazy?

Life changes at a blink of an eye. For example you find some thing you feel is going to work and then it all flip flops and you have no idea then a few more bumps and twist are thrown in as if it was not interesting enough as it was before the whole flip flop! And then add in the stuff that is going on inside of you with all of the outside stuff and why not just call this a whole mess of disaster. For goodness sale can it just be one thing at a time! One more thing to that add the fact that the one person you feel like will get all of this is not around at this time and if you so tell them all that is going on and how you feel you risk putting them through worse then you are going through. My self talk has increased so much, all inner , but its got to the point it's like I am having a constant conversation  in there! And I swear if some one could hear my thoughts they would throw me in an mental institution! I tell my self to shut the cupboard because its one of MY pet peaves to have a cupboard left open! It's almost like I am speaking my thoughts out load in my brain! Heavens now I do sound crazy!