The actual feeling of time growing near

There is a crib in the corner near my bed, a changing table against the wall and a rocking chair by the door. A few diapers is the drawer so tiny and cute and little boy clothes starting to be folded and placed where they go with a diaper bag stuffed with things I have been told deserve to go with me to the hospital. Is it getting that close already?! I am going to be a mom in 7 weeks. It's so unreal to me! Yes I feel him move yes my shape is no longer what I used to be proud of yet until the room I am staying in started to turn into a nursery it had not dawned on me how little time I have left! I am so excited.. Yet nervous too! Will I be a good mom? Yikes! This is all so new and don't let me even get started on the whole alien thought of delivery.... That just freaks me out!! I mean I know that hundreds of women have done it but for it being my first time I will admit it is a nerve racking thought. I am so blessed for this beautiful opportunity and so thrilled to meet my lil angel and hold him in my arms. Just admitting this is all so new and so bizarre to me.