There's more

I know that there is more out there. I keep looking back when I get to look forward. I left what is behind me behind me for a reason, I know that I knew there was something more and that is why I made the choices I made. I am just walking an unknown path, I am making my way to so much more then I left in my past. I let silly little worries fog my light up.. things like " having a baby will make it more of a challenge for me to find the perfect one." or " divorce is so hard" when really its lies. There is some one out there ready to love me and Malaki with all his heart I am sure of this, and Divorce is only as hard as I make it and really it means freedom to move forward and find that something more.

Dear Love, Who ever you may be.
I know you are out there. I know your smile, I know your spirit. I have settled and at times given up on finding you, I am done giving up. My paths have led me this way and that way each teaching me more and more about me, and in the end more about you. You see I know that you will love me fore me and I for you. I am having a son soon, he is so brilliantly bright, he shines out brighter than any light I have ever seen and I too want to be like him, I know you will love him as much as I do. A dear friend says he is already searching for you his perfect Daddy, you see any one can have a child but only some one truly amazing can be his Daddy. Malaki is looking for you as he is still waiting for his chance to be born, for he wants me to be happy. 
I know you are out there. I know your kindness. I know your soul. I wait for you as I strive to be as I picture you, shining bright light, loving, honest, powerful and spiritual. You are there staring at the same full moons, praising the same rain clouds as the rain blesses your face, you are there a bright shining light. 
I know you are out there, I am not in any hurry. I am perfect as I am, and I now you will show at the perfect time. You are my something more and for now I am blessed just knowing you are out there.