A new year is just about here. 2014 amazed me with its ups and downs. From the first day to the last High lighting some. Jan 2014 I found out I was pregnant. I was planning on telling my husband I was leaving him and then I got really sick.. going to the store on a hunch I bought a home pregnancy test. It came with two luckily because the first was a dud the 2nd one changed my life forever. I chose to give my husband a chance to prove her could be a husband and father. Morning sickness, Tears, new mommy fears, Fights, Separation, Watching him move on. I moved home to kanab after having to quit my job due to super power strength morning sickness. Watching My husband give up on me was hard but I knew it was coming. When he had a chance to sweep me off my feet show me he could be a dad and be the one to love me he hid with a video game in front of him, when I asked him to make the choose and he did not I made it for me. More morning sickness, Then labor pains. I moved in with my mom so she could keep an eye on me... she walked and walked and walked me. there were a few false alarms then he came on his due date, Sept 26th 2:45 AM. My water broke the day before at 1:00 PM when I was reaching for a chocolate bar haha. I rushed to the bathroom to see what was up because it just felt like a small gush, brushed it off and told my mom I was fine. She told me to get dressed that we would take a walk so after dressing and walking out to tell her I was ready I ended up telling her it was time to go to have a baby because little gush became bigger. Laboring for many hours with my best friend, mom and grandma there we had a few scares when his heart stopped. Then he was here rushed away with out me holding him The nurses worried about getting him to breathe the Doctor worried about my blood loss and getting me to stop bleeding. 45 min later I got to hold my little boy for a moment. then he was taken out and I was left alone in the room with just my bestfriend. a few hours later we followed my baby to St. George as he was light flown there for an infection in his lungs. Five days there and then we finally got to come home. And then its been mommy time the whole time, learning and growing the whole time. Another highlight would be coming into contact with a "old Beau" I learned my feeling for him had never died the way they did with the rest, like they did with my husband. Being back in contact with him has been delightful, he is defiantly some one I can talk to. So there is the high lights of the year HUGE and life changing.
2015 will hold much!!
I do not write new year Resolutions for they are known for just being promises broken so instead I will write what is going to happen this year.
~I will first and foremost love my self more.
~ I will love others more openly.
~ There will be more Adventures of course.
~ And I will be trusting my heart more.
~ Things will go smoother.
~ I will look on the bright side more.
~ I will be healthier.
2015 is looking great with a great love for my self and those around me and even those I can not see or be near, With great Adventures waiting for me, as I trust my self and my heart completely, A year of bright possibilities and a smooth flow to it, A year to take on my wishes and wants. A year of my body releasing unneeded weight and garbage. 2015 looks like a fun year! Bring it on!!
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