Kinda disheartened by today. Spent weeks working on crafts  so I could buy Malaki some Christmas gifts and then I did not sell one stocking. I poured my heart and soul into those... I did sell two Crystals and a few cookies but that is no way near what I had desired to sell. I want to buy him a mobile for his crib and a crib mirror and then I wanted to by me the few things I deserve like socks, and such. I guess I have come to a conclusion... Most likely I will be getting a job after New Years. I want to be with my baby I don't want to be the mom who works all day comes home tired and ready for bed! I so want to be a stay at home mom and I thought I had it worked out but today proved it all. I really was looking foreward to buying some Christmas for my lil man... I guess I could give him 15 giant stockings ( empty) and some wrapped stones . No first thing Monday I will go price the mobile at the thrift store its missing the arm but I might get to make do. I can make things work I always do and every thing turns out alright I am just praying for some of that Christmas magic to shine in me so that I can somehow sell some of my wrapped crystals and stockings.