Here we go again

Ok I hate to write too sad toned posts in a roll but life just does not play out as we would want it to. Grandma is letting the people next door win. They have been trying to get her to move for a while now by complaining to the City about every little thing and now she is leaving. I do not feel she is being the smartest with her planned actions, She wants to move into an RV in my uncles yard. I give her a week before she starts going crazy. So where does that leave me and my family. That leaves me with no choice to get a job maybe even two. So that I can maybe keep this home... you see I have no where to go. and my mom and dad would be with out a home too if this place falls out from under us. And I am so Tired of it! Why do I get this awful feeling like I am an awful person for bringing Malaki in to all this. Mom cant work... Dad cant work. All is left is me. I guess it is better here with family then on my own some where. If I can some how just get a job that will pay me enough to make it through I might be able to hold on for a bit. perhaps I was stupid in the chooses I made in my life But I know one thing I love Malaki more than any thing else in this world and he is not going to have to live a life like me... losing home after home and always wondering if we will make it through.. Being an adult but not sure if leaving your mom and dad behind for another life is the best thing... because you might be the only one that can do any thing. Can I just say.. Hello Family, Goodbye life... ( this reminds me of a twist on " Hello Sister, Goodbye Life" a movie I watched not too long ago. ) I love my family and will do any thing to make sure they are ok. So here is me stating the honest truth. Time to grow up, Become the one thing I never wanted to be ( a working mom ) and get things taken care of.