I am sure every mom does this, or most but there are some nights I just stay awake staring at my little boy wondering how I could be so lucky. He is perfect! How can something so small be so amazing that he takes my breath away, he is on my mind all day every day. Is it selfish of me to not want to go off and work because I want to spend every moment of the day with my son? It is hard for me to believe that there are some women out there that can't wait to drop kids off at dare care or school so they can go to work and have time with out their children when it breaks my heart to think I have to find a job soon because I won't have a way to take care of him if I don't. I wish there was no such thing as money! It's a cursed thing! That has only the meaning we as people put on it!!! I miss home. There was no such thing there! Just peace and love, a family of Devine beings living as one! There was no pain no suffering. Perfect peace... But then with out this world what would we learn? I did not realize how beautiful home was until I saw and felt how it is here... My little angel tho I wish for home so often I also know that I have abit of it here for it is within each of us and I see it the most in you.