Spoiling me.

This year I am going to be as healthy as I have ever been because this year I am going to love my body! Loving your body is not just about Accepting it as a beautiful thing It is also those moments when you do special things to spoil your body like an extra long bath to soak out any stuck energy or expeiancing some thing new to see if it works for your body Like a remedy my dear friend told me about involving washing your hair with baking soda and vinegar ( Sounds Like a childs science project on your head! But fun) Tonight I am committed to spoil myself with a nice bath once Malaki is asleep so that I can not only feel comfortable in my own skin but clean as well! See I keep stressing about My weight and my hair falling out and the stretch marks when really all I really deserve is to relax and let my body be perfect for me. Because I know what works and does not work for me and one thing I know does not work for me is that four letter word... Diet. I find when I start scolding my self and saying I get to eat healthier well that is when I do just what I did tonight! I sat there saying "oh yes eat healthy... there is nothing healthy to eat in this house I want... No fresh fruit or vegies... guess I will eat some thing small like... Tuna on crackers" then when some thing like mom making cheesecake comes up I am like " OH Yes I am starving for some thing good!" and there goes the healthy thoughts. Other than that I find when I am saying no to myself over food I get depressed. I am just not a dieter. See last time I lost weight I really dont know what I did other that not worry about it and feel beautiful just as I was then the next thing I knew I was down a few pant sizes and feeling so great. It does not work for me to look at numbers on a scale. They never really speak truth for me. I mean even when I was pregnant and one of the nurses asked me my weight she looked at me like I was crazy and said " No way! You look way lighter than that!" Of course the scale said I was that much but I have never really appeared to be as much as the scale says ( perfect for those people at the carnivals that say they can guess your weight). So I look at how I feel about me not the number some silly thing wants to say about me.

I am smiling!! my mask is dry around my
mouth making it hard to smile! 

 So what am I doing for my body tonight to show it the love it deserves. I am first ( as I type this up ) relaxing in a face mask. Then I am going to soak in a night hot bath with Lavender and wash my hair with the new learned remedy then I am going to clean off and make my bed so that I can curl up in a fresh warm blanket from the dryer and enjoy some relaxing music as I sleep.

I love my Body! I love all that my body does for me! I am Thankful for the body I do have!