Dreams

What are my dreams? I mean I am not like those that have huge dreams that I spend every moment working towards because my life would not be complete with out doing that one thing. No I guess I have pretty small dreams in comparison to some. I dream of true love, of being loved by some one who will love me for who I am and love my son with all his heart. I dream of having some one to laugh with me and and share their life with me. 

I dream of forever being happy and of my family being happy. 

I dream of singing, tho I guess I have never really dreamt I would go very far. I mean it would be nice and I know I am good at it but I just never had a dream to chase like some. Because I do not have to chase some one to love me... I feel they will be there some day.. there is not really some thing that I can do to make that dream come true, just time and not to give up. I mean Not giving up is HUGE seeing how there have been many relationships that have not worked, inclueding one marriage and it would be so easy to give up, but I don't. 

And being happy is not something you chase it is some thing you just are, and I am. 

Now I guess I could go some where with one of my talents but there is not really that drive behind any of them pushing me into a dream. 

So yes I have Dreams but none that need to be chased. 

Now when it comes to dreaming. like sleeping and dreaming. Now I really believe in them they are amazing guides and can teach you. And there are things I dream of that I follow after. Such as knowing that I was going to have a little boy due to dreaming of him before he was born, or my dream that some one is out there waiting for the moment to be with me. Dreams mean things. Thats for sure. 

I am not saying I dont believe in chasing dreams, I do! I just dont really have any like the ones I see others have... such like going to a top Collage, or becoming famous. I did once. I use to dream of serving a mission and after putting so much hard work into it and then having a church leader tell me I could not go due to being unworthy ( tho I had done nothing unworthy) so I chose not to go. Yes I was heart broken and did not know what to do with my self after. That was my dream I had wanted to serve a mission more than any thing in fact I had no plans other than that... so I was at a lost when it did not happen. But everything turned out perfect. I will say chasing that dream lead me to some pretty awsome places and then also I will say that not going led me to amazing adventures and magnificent new blessings. 

SO right now I deserve to find a new dream I guess.. And so ya haha.