I know its early

I know its quite early but I start listening to christmas music in sept because thats when I start chior practice. So don't worry the tree dont go up til the day after thanksgiving but you have to deal with the christmas music! oh but you just wait until the day after thanksgiving then you will be swimming in christmas on here!!

           This is such a wonderful performance I just had to post it! I adore Christmas. There is so much magic in Christmas I just know any thing can happen. My Christmas wishes always seem to come true. Yes not always all at once and some times not exactly what I had in mind. Some times it is just near Christmas that the first seed is planted. And then some times there is just that magical moment that it hits. I mean the Christmas Magic is there we just have to believe in it. Jesus Came t this earth that we might be able to do all things and that all things would be possible and they are through him. He gave us all things. Each blessing is ours to claim we just have to live so that e may claim it. I know that I have much to work on that I might reach out and claim all the blessings I wish to obtain.
And of course true to tradition:

*~~Dear Santa 

Do you remember me? Its been awhile since you have heard my plea. Ok maybe only a year but still. 

Last year you brought me the greatest gift ever. yes it was a week late but that was the Last day of my "monthly" for nine months. I had asked for a more purpose in my life. And you sure gave that to me. I had came to you lost because I was fighting so hard to love with my husband infact I started this blog with all these challenges for my self to work on our relationship. From cooking really nice meals to just letting him win all the time. But with how we had treated me I find my self at a loss of Christmas Spirit and thats just not me. I am like Miss Holly Jolly! So I turned to you for you are such a strong Christmas spirit and you reminded me what the Christmas season was all about.. A child and then I found out I had been pregnant at that time. What a beautiful lesson! Well with that came so much more I had asked you for guidance and not that I am giving you all the credit but boy did i learn from this year and it all started with Christmas morn. Now I have no Idea why I am spending time explaining all this when you know exactly what you gave me that morning as I stood out in the slow falling snow. 

Well this year I am here a new. New mother.  New at being a single mom, New out look on life. new person and so much more to learn. Life is so beautiful that way. so I am no longer that young child on your knee nor am I that lost woman begging for freedom that I was afraid to give me. This year I ask you for one thing. It is some thing That I know you can do and that would be harder for me this year please let " him " know I am still here, I have been learning and preparing for his love. I still believe in him as I still believe in you. Except he is flesh and blood haha as you are a spirit. You have always given me exactly what I have asked for. I have asked for a boyfriend when I was 18 and you for sure gave me that haha and taught me I did not need a boyfriend to see me through.  one year I asked to see that my dad still believed in some thing and then I saw him cry with tears of joy at the generosity of dear souls who left a box for our family to find. And last year for guidance and purpose and a pregnancy leading to a beautiful little boy came and that pregnancy showed me so much and taught me so much. So this year just let my soul mate know I am still here and I still believe in him.. I have not given up on him. And oh one last thing Let there be no worry, no anger, no grudges held towards any soul no pain be in the home on Christmas day, Let there be peace in our home, let light surround us and be with us this holiday. Let us remember that each year no matter how hard the winter is flowers still bloom in the tender care of our lord. This is my Christmas wish, for my soul mate to know I will never give up on him and peace this Christmas. 

So Santa My dear friend. Thank you for the many beautiful gifts you have given to me. And God bless. 

~~*Bellah