Dear Malaki

Mommy sees more sun rises with you than she ever had in her whole life. I thank you for choosing me to share them with. Some one accused me of being a bad mom yesterday. It broke my heart. I do all that i know how to do for you. but because I care very deeply for a man ( not your father) and  want to see if maybe he can be part of our lives I am a bad mom? I did not plan any of this!  I promise. I did every thing I could to stay with your birth father. I just feel you deserve a happy Mommy and a Daddy who will love you as much as I do. I don't care what they say! I still can be the best mommy yet!